You and Your Type: The Gifts and Challenges

The prolific and oh-so-wise Fr. Richard Rohr likes to say, if you’re on the fence about your Enneagram type, it’s likely the one that humiliates you the most.  This checks out for me big time.  The first time I read the description of type four, the Romantic, I felt equal parts seen and squirm.  To this day, when I teach the basic nine types to folks, type four still feels a little cringy.  

I believe this is due to the fact that as humans, we are well aware of our weaknesses.  Most of us tend to focus more on those than the glowing parts of us.  

Have you ever had a work review or played a show or given a presentation where 95% of the feedback was positive and 5% negative only to spend the remainder of the day fixated on the 5%?  I can’t even count the times in my experience.  

There is actually science behind this phenomenon which we won’t get into here, but suffice it to say, the Enneagram gives us a clear bird’s eye view into both the gifts and challenges in our type.  

In my new Enneagram & Lunch Mastermind series, we will spend some time understanding what motivates us in our unique type in order to have greater self-awareness and compassion.  I’d love for you to join us! 

Today, I want to unpack the high-level gifts and challenges for every type.  

Type 1: The Improver

Gift—True to their values and convictions and motivated to make the world and themselves a better place.

Challenge—In the process, they fall prey to perfectionism and chronic self-criticism, resulting in others-criticism and resentment.  

Type 2: The Helper

Gift—Generous, warm and compassionate.  Twos focus on other people and prioritize deep bonds in their relationships.

Challenge—In the process, they repress their own needs and desires, placing them on the back-burner and let their own physical and emotional well-being fall by the wayside.  

Type 3: The Achiever

Gift—Due to their steely determination and drive, they achieve great things in the world and inspire the rest of us to do the same.  

Challenge—Work and the appearance of success take center leaving relationships with others and themselves to falter, often resulting in disconnection dishonesty with their true selves.

Type 4: The Romantic

Gift—Creative, idealistic, and emotionally honest, fours draw out the meaning and beauty in life and invite us into deeper authenticity.   

Challenge—In the process, they get stuck in comparison with others and focused on what is missing in life resulting in self-absorption and a feeling of being misunderstood.  

Type 5: The Observer

Gift—Inventive, knowledge-seeking, and inquisitive, fives are motivated to find interesting solutions to problems and have a huge capacity for learning and mastery of all sorts of subjects.  

Challenge—Due to their need for privacy and solitude, they often struggle in interpersonal relationships prioritizing a sense of self-sufficiency and the preservation of emotional and material resources.  

Type 6: The Loyalist

Gift—Sixes live with a sense of responsibility and foresight, highly attuned to the safety and security, and maintenance of the common good.  They are incredibly loyal to their friends and beliefs.  

Challenge—In an effort to avoid potential problems, they become seekers of problems often going to worst-case scenario thinking and high anxiety.

Type 7: The Enthusiast

Gift—Sevens are upbeat and positive, always looking for the good in every situation and inviting us into greater joy and adventure. 

Challenge—In the process, they avoid the painful realities of life, always looking for the next fix or adventure.  In turn, this can result in a fear of commitment and an inability to follow through.  

Type 8: The Challenger

Gift—Eights are bold and impactful, effecting change in the world due to their passion to protect others, often the marginalized, and seek justice.  

Challenge—In the process, eights can become overly impactful, controlling and impulsive, often aggressive, asleep to the softer vulnerable parts of who they are.  

Type 9: The Peacemaker

Gift—Nines bring a sense of openness and harmony to the world.  They are  incredibly grounded and invite us into more presence and spirituality.  

Challenge: As they focus heavily on the agendas of others and maintaining the peace, they fall asleep to their own needs and desires, often feeling that their presence and voice don’t matter in the world.  

How do you experience your gifts and challenges of your type?  I’d love to explore this more with you in my upcoming group!  

The Enneagram and Self-Compassion

It’s storytime. 

I’ll never forget going to my little brother, Gates’, junior high basketball game.  He must have been in sixth grade or so.  He was a damn good player.  Gates and I have an extra special bond as he is 15 years younger than me and was born on my birthday.  I’ve always felt a deep connection to him and this parent-like pride in everything he does.   

It was a heated game.  As point guard, Gates dribbled the ball in from center court.  The clock was running down to the bone.  The teams were tied.  This was a make or break moment and everyone knew it.  I could feel the weight of all those parents’ hopes and dreams hanging on the chiseled little shoulders of my brother.  

He had to take the shot.  With two seconds left, he launched a three-pointer into the air with perfect form and a prayer.  The buzzer scowled back.  He missed the shot.  

His whole body sunk low to the court as all the oxygen on our side of the gym was snuffed out.  My heart ripped open and I wanted to rush down there and give him the most embarrassing big sister hug of his life.  In that moment, I was more proud of him than ever.  I wanted him to know that.  I wanted to take away all of his pain.  

I didn’t know it then, but looking back, this was compassion operating in its purest form.  

I know you have stories to illustrate a similar brand of compassion you’ve felt for loved ones in your life.  Yet tell me this: when was the last time you actively participated in it towards yourself? 

I honestly can’t think of one time in my experience that I’ve had an organic, visceral example of self-compassion like I did that day for Gates.  I am slowly learning to grow that though.  

Guess what? If you’re like me and lack this seamless sense of loving kindness towards yourself, it’s okay.  Chances are, you, like me, missed that day in Self-Compassion 101.  

Compassion takes empathy one step further and is something we get to cultivate in relationship.  Compassion is the feeling that comes up when we join in with another’s suffering and feel compelled to help relieve that suffering.  Self compassion points this act of courage inwards, to our “me.” 

I believe what makes it so difficult for most people to treat themselves with the same compassion they do others is wrapped up in the fact that we simply do not fully understand ourselves.  Sure, we put a mask on and present a pretty picture to the world in efforts to gain approval and acceptance.  Yet over time, we lose touch with the truth of who we are and the basic understanding of what motivates our thoughts, feelings, and behaviors.  

This is why the Enneagram is such a powerful tool.  It uncovers and drills down the story we’ve been living out of—essentially our personality.  

Living fully alive—thriving—requires us to wake up and take the steering wheel of our life.  The comfortable route involves lots of trance—or falling asleep at the wheel.  So, if you’re looking for the easy way out, the Enneagram (or self-compassion for that matter) is probably not for you.  Staying comfy and cozy where you’ve always been is.

If you’re looking to get out of your own way and play on your own team, welcome to a new way.  Yes, it requires that you and I show up, but also saves us from a lifetime of regret.  I can’t think of a more defeating end game than to wake up one distant day from now wishing I’d have valued myself along the way. 

What a dynamic duo! Self-compassion and the Enneagram.  They go well together in so many ways.  The Enneagram helps us know and understand our story—why we think, act, and feel the way we have for years and how we hide behind a mask called personality to conceal the parts of ourselves we aren’t too proud of.  This deep well of understanding is the most profound act of love.  

Combine it with the tangible practice of self-compassion and all of the sudden we put skin on that understanding. How? By showing up for ourselves and our stories in a new way.  Instead of trying to hide behind a mask, we now are able to lean into our real, raw experience and befriend her.  No more striving, no more shaming, and no more fixing.  

Self-compassion allows the pain, hurt, or fear to just be.  It also creates space to show loving kindness as we would to a dear friend so as to move through the pain of life as opposed to dancing around it. 

Are you ready for lasting transformation in your relationship with you? Are you tired of playing small in your own life? If so, I’ve got a roadmap and would love your company in my lunchtime Enneagram Mastermind. We meet once a month to explore various Enneagram-related topics while learning to foster self-compassion in a community of like-minded women.  To register or learn more, click here.

The Problem with Goals

I’ve been thinking a lot about goals lately.  Maybe it’s my over-active three wing (the achiever) or maybe it’s the subtle cues of fall’s imminent arrival right around the corner. Or Both?

I’m curious.

How do you approach goals?  Do they feel supportive? Restrictive? Unrealistic? All or nothing?  

I’m a bit all over the map. 

Typically, I’ll hunker down with my laptop and an oat milk latte and energetically list out what I want to accomplish in the week, months, and year ahead.  I love the energy involved in this process—sky’s the limit and I like to fly high.  And then, I peruse the final holy grail, and I….leave it there?  

Yep. I save it in a folder and let it collect virtual dust on the shelf, taking with me only a few of the highlights rolling around in my head and no clear plan of action.    

I know what you’re thinking.  “But they have planners for this!” Wah, wah.  

I know I HAVE ALL OF THEM.   

Here’s the deal.  I believe goals aren’t the answer for a few different reasons.  

1. They create a destination where you will find satisfaction only when said destination is reached.  I like to call this contingency living.  I’ll be happy when I…(lose 10 pounds or get the book deal or run the marathon).

2. They often set us up for failure because they’re too big and lack a plan.

3. They take us out of the present moment, eyes fixed on the prize ahead.  We end up missing out on our lives always living for the payoff.  

4. They don’t address the identity shift that must happen to affect long term change. 

So, what if we learn to fall in love with the process instead of the goal.  What if we create a doable, enjoyable, and realistic plan that focuses on tiny changes—shifts—along the way? In doing so, we not only create momentum, we start to see ourselves in a different, more empowered light.  We step into a new identity, a new story, that aligns with the type of person who achieves their desired outcome.  

Are you ready to be the hero of your own story?  Join me in the Practice, an online community committed to self-care and development by creating everyday rhythms and practices that help you thrive.

I’d love to support you.  

Here is your seat at the table

I have a few bold off-the-bat questions for you:

Do you long for a greater sense of community? New friendships? Do you want to better understand yourselves and your relationships? Do you want to take your Enneagram understanding to the next level? Do you desire a safe place to share some of your story? Do you want to unlock personal and professional opportunities? Do you like the idea of group therapy, but over a delicious lunch?

I know, that was a LOT…however…

If you answered yes to any of the above, you would LOVE my new Enneagram Mastermind group that starts up September 27, 2023.  It’s the perfect blend of deep connections, learning, fun, beautiful hospitality, and sharing sacred space as we move through an 8-month curriculum I’ve built specifically for this experience.  

Don’t worry, you don’t have to know a lot about the Enneagram to join.  You don’t even have to be an extrovert either (big ole’ introvert over here:).  Honestly, you just need to have a desire to connect in a deeper way to yourself and feel more seen and known in the context of community.  

Part of growth and healing requires relationship both with self and other safe people who have earned the right to hear your story.  Over the course of this group, we will build out that safety and trust so you can share parts of your story and how they have shaped your personality and core value system in a remarkable way.  

And if you know me, you know I’m all about editing and re-writing the parts of our stories that no longer serve us.  Yes, we will do lot’s of this too.  

Get excited!  

Space is super limited, so please grab your seat at the table today.  

Do You Overcommit?

I used to be a lot nicer.  I used to say yes most of the time.  I used to jam-pack my days into nights with everything from coffee/lunch meetings to work (obvi) to school to long phone conversations with friends in need to shows and dinners and…you get it—contained chaos. 

I worked so hard and simultaneously complained about feeling overwhelmed with little to show for it.  “What gives?”  I’d wonder to myself more days than not.

In my mid-thirties, I woke up to a cold, hard realization—it wasn’t pretty.  I realized I was overcommitting to others out of fear and obligation and in the process, abandoning myself.  I was playing small in my life due to one of two possible self-diagnoses (or probably both):

1) FOMO (fear of missing out) 

2) FOBA (fear of being alone).  

Basically, fear and scarcity were running the show, which is really about self-worth, not time management.  

I would drop everything to help others actualize their dreams, but when it came to pushing mine forward, I was the one missing in action.  I’d rather procrastinate the deep work of creating my vision in order to pick up the pieces for others around me.  It was an immediate, (if not false) hit of belonging straight to the old ego.  

I now know this isn’t true belonging.  It’s trying to fit in. 

I also found I wasn’t as nice as I’d been letting on.  Behind the saccharine-laced veil, I was cynical and resentful, constantly comparing myself to others and critical of my inauthenticity.  

I started making some changes.  I got more honest…maybe less sweet.  I started taking inventory as to what I wanted and shifted my priorities around to facilitate those things.  You know what that was?

I have a hunch it may resonate…

I wanted to be seen, heard, and to affect positive change in the world.  Baby step after baby step, I started waking up to these desires—and honoring them.  After all, no one else could ever do this for me.  Sure, I could put support in place, but I had to do the work.  And this “work" actually smelled like joy—purpose. 

Bumpy at best, I’m still on the journey, yet I’ve found greater congruence and confidence in this new way.  I’ve also found tons more time to appropriate to the meaningful relationships that matter most to me.  

Oh, but there’s something else you should know.  A reckoning of sorts took place.  That hit I mentioned earlier? At the core of all my “overwhelm” that kept me spinning out of control was a gaping hole I was desperately trying to fill: my needs for love, acceptance, and belonging.  

I woke up to the unflattering reality that I was spread so thin in an effort to get these core needs met, and in the process, abandoned myself and my desires altogether leaving a bad aftertaste of resentment and utter discouragement.  

If you find yourself constantly overcommitting and overwhelmed, I’ve got good news for you: 

You can step off the treadmill at any time.  You can choose something different—something resonant and true for you.  Yet, In order to see your dreams become reality, you must be willing to let go of some extra baggage:

1. The belief that other people need you more than you need you

2. Saying yes to too many social obligations to be nice and fit in

3. Staying busy to avoid your needs and desires

4. Toxic relationships that breed self-doubt 

5. Any reason that convinces you you don’t have what it takes (aka fear)

6. Comparison with others (Is all that screen time really necessary?)

7. Playing the victim when setbacks arise (and they will)

My hunch is, you also want to be seen.  I sure hope so—it’s your birthright! You weren’t created to hide behind the agendas of other people.  You weren’t created to be nice.  You weren’t even created to be liked.  Let’s face it, you’re not for everyone.  You were created to be the most beautiful, bold, and true YOU imaginable.  

Oh, she’s in there, alright.  And she’s a force of nature.  Yes, we need to see her.…