Before You Start Something, Try This...

This past Friday, I did a fun little thing. I filmed an Enneagram video series I can’t wait to tell you more about. It was so much fun and I was reminded of just how much I believe in the Enneagram as a tool to truly understand and care for ourselves like never before.

To tee it up, I want to unpack something with you here as a little self-care appetizer of sorts. After all, I really do believe in this stuff and have been changed from the inside out as I’ve put these tools and practices to work in my life throughout the last decade. I selfishly want you to know and love them too!

There’s one caveat though—before we start any type of self-care regimen, I believe it’s important to lay some groundwork in order to build a strong foundation so it will stick.

As the Enneagram teaches us responsiveness rather than reactivity, I believe this is true not just with how we navigate experiences in life, I believe it’s true as we start a new self-care plan.

I believe the big reason our grand schemes for change and improvement don’t work is simple: we don’t build a strong foundation first. By this I mean, we don’t do what’s necessary to understand ourselves and why we want to see change in the first place. Typically, we just don’t feel good or we think we need something external to fix whatever feels broken inside in order to attain self-acceptance and love.

And that’s the kicker. It’s why we don’t sustain lasting, life-giving change: we are working against instead of with. We are trying to fix rather than understand. We are looking to escape rather than truly connect.

Well, Lovely, let me be the one to tell you you don’t need fixing...you actually have everything right inside of you to thrive. You lack NOTHING.

And that’s where we start. From a place of wholeness, not lack. That is the magical, sacred, special sauce that we all need a heavy dose of before we dive headfirst in the direction of our desires.

Self-care and compassion must be built on the firm foundation of a wholeness mindset that says, “I am loved” or "I open up to Love.” After all, you were born into this world as pure essence—as love. Sure, we inevitably fall and get scraped up along the way, however, it doesn’t change the simple truth that our first foundation is one of love, not lack.

And so, we sure up the foundation. We mend the shaky parts. We ask ourselves, “How can I harness 5% more of the original loving essence that is my birthright?”

That’s our baseline work. To practice living into the love that is already there so the building blocks of self-care and compassion will stick.

It’s so simple, and yet we often overcomplicate it. You are called to shine brightly in love. This is the place we thrive from.

Love & Gratitude,

Katie

The Story of You

When was the last time you thought of yourself as “the artist of your days” as John O’Donohue handily puts it?

Me? Not very often.

In fact, I feel most days, the ballot’s still out depending on the quality of sleep I got the night before, the strength of my morning coffee, and the rigor of my to-do list.

Wait a minute, though. That feels victim-y and weak?? Hmm, perhaps. Yet, no matter how much A-Game we tackle our days with, we can all fall into that trap. 

Why? Because we live out of stories. Hundreds of thousands of stories we make up about ourselves and our lives every single day.

Part of our work in self-development and therapy (especially when using the Enneagram) is to wake up to the stories we’ve been living out of, albeit unconsciously, for a very long time.

Often these stories are limiting, keeping us cramped and fixated in ways that hold us back from our fullest potential.

It took landing myself at Vanderbilt Psychiatric Hospital for a week after a scary encounter with debilitating depression and resulting amnesia to wake up to the fact that my story was, indeed, no longer working for me. That rock bottom crash shook me to the core. Finally, I knew I needed to begin to write a new story—something kind and compassionate—something true.

And I did.

The Enneagram has been a big part of this shift. I believe it can be for you as well.

Here’s even better news: you don’t have to check in to your nearest psychiatric hospital to experience this wake-up call and resulting transformation. I believe it awaits you now, as you read these words and go about your day.

Here’s the deal though: waking up can be stressful. It’s far easier to coast through life unaware. (Well, until it’s not.)

We all need support on this path of transformation. We need light and encouragement to help us get from where we’ve been to where we long to go. I believe we’re all on a similar journey in that we want to go home—home to the truth of who we are—home to all God has for us.

If you feel stuck in the story you’ve been living, you’re not alone. You don’t have to figure it all out from here, either. I’d love for you to join me in the coming months as we take a long, soft look at the story we’ve been living out of. I think we could all use some editing. After all, I’m convinced you are the Hero of your story, not the victim.

As for me, I’d love to serve you as a guide. It’s time to write the next chapter. 

But first, you must decide...are you ready?

Love & Gratitude,

Katie

My Favorite Rookie Mistake

I grew up worshiping Sheryl Crow. She embodied brilliant writer, instrumentalist, singer, and entertainer all in one while looking really strong and sure of herself along the way.  

But when I listened to an interview with her on NPR, I learned of a much different, fragile side of Ms. Crow. She admitted a lifelong battle with self-doubt and depression. She even went so far as to say this larger than life persona she’d created over the years felt paper-thin and contrary to the reality of her own broken self-image.

Guess what? You and I are no different (well, besides the arsenal of Grammy’s perhaps). We learned early on which masks looked really good on us that would also double as a protective shield. They would help us show up and be seen on this daunting stage called life.  

After all, the word personality is derived from the Greek word, “persona”, which means “mask”.  We all wear certain masks of personality to protect ourselves from rejection and failure—to be liked. 

Your personality is NOT a bad thing either! It’s one of the loveliest things about you.  

But when we over-identify with that mask we lose touch with the reality of who we are—the authentic essential self.  

I believe the Enneagram is one of the best, most accessible tools for self-understanding. It serves as a roadmap, guiding us on the journey of self-discovery and relational growth.

We make one whopping mistake with the Enneagram, though.  Just as we over-identify with certain personality traits or masks we wear, we can also hugely over-identify with the classic and obtuse characteristics of our specific number or “type.”  

We attach to the safe constructs of this number as opposed to allowing it to help us “unlearn” certain behaviors that got us into trouble in the first place.  

For example, when I first discovered I was a four on the Enneagram (the Romantic), it was like someone had given me a handbook, or a language, for all the reasons I do what I do. The melancholic tendencies, the shame, the need to be special, the obsession with aesthetic, all of it! I thought I was just crazy all those years!?! (Ballot's still out there).  

Finally, I had insight into the complex story I’d been living out of

Initially though, instead of allowing this insight to help me shed the unhelpful parts of my personality, I took the information and completely indulged in it. Instead of “I’m Katie, and I identify with type four on the Enneagram,” it was, “I’m a four. Oh, and my name is Katie.” 

Are you tracking?  

In essence, if you are letting your type define you as opposed to allowing it to unlock the beauty and nuance of your purest, truest self, you’re still hiding in a box.  

Don’t worry, it’s my favorite mistake too. I camped out in Four Land for a good five years before I understood how much bigger and more powerful the Enneagram really is.  

It doesn’t want to type you just to leave you there. It wants to guide you home to wholehearted living without the entrapments of all those fearful masks.  

Here's the thing: You are in a league of your own. You're more than a number or a type on any personality indicator. Thankfully though, this gift of the Enneagram can support you in discovering all the intricacy, uniqueness, and power that lies outside the box and inside of you.  I'm pretty thrilled I get to support you as well. 

Love & Gratitude,

Katie

What's Your True Desire?

What’s stopping you from doing what you truly desire?  In my experience, it is much harder to do what I truly desire when I’m acting as my own worst enemy.   

However, when I get out of my own way and start playing for instead of against my team, big things happen.  It’s up to me to get out of my own way and embrace the responsibility of loving and taking care of myself.

Perhaps the greatest tool alongside therapy that has equipped me to do this is the Enneagram.  It has been a steady companion, giving me the language to express lonely truths I thought were mine alone, as well as reasons for doing the clumsy things I so often do.  The Enneagram has gently shown me all the ways I wear false--if not fashionable--masks of personality to protect myself from being truly seen and perhaps rejected. It has shown me the great potential that awaits (when I do step out of my own way).

You may know about the Enneagram, and if so, I’m grateful.  It’s not just a buzz word or cool kid trend. In fact, it’s so ancient experts can’t quite nail down its conception. It has stood the test of time, and I’m thrilled more and more people are bringing it into their homes, relationships, and dinner conversations.

As we wind down the summer, let’s take the time to become our own best friend…to connect back to the little girl who only knows love and has no clue how to lie or be afraid or confuse success with love.  

If this feels wildly out of reach and too esoteric, don’t worry, you’re not alone, I’d love to support you in your desire to truly thrive.  I’ve got a killer roadmap to get us there.  

You ready?

Love & Gratitude,

Katie

A Powerful Tool for Finding Your True Identity

If you know me, you’re probably aware of how much I love the Enneagram. Thirteen years ago, I discovered this incredible resource and have passionately been going deeper into its wisdom: reading, studying, and applying it in my own life as well as in our therapeutic journey.

So, what is the Enneagram?

The Enneagram is more than a personality test, it’s more than a spiritual tool, and it’s more than a book. It’s an ancient, holistic personality and character typing system used to deepen self-awareness and understanding. It’s a powerful tool for revealing your true identity.

Unlike most modern personality tests and online indicators, the Enneagram goes much deeper than behavioral tendencies, strengths, weaknesses, and preferences. It gives us the why behind how we think, feel, and act as it explores the motivations and nuances that inform our life experiences.

For me, the Enneagram has been a patient and wise companion gently revealing layers of insight into the truest, most essential parts of who I am as well as those I love. It has given me invaluable insight into relationships and has explained the driving forces for why we do the things we do, both good and bad.

I firmly believe knowing who we truly are and likewise who we are not, is a massive step towards personal freedom. If you are into this, yet perhaps feel overwhelmed by the sound of it, you’re in the right place. I’d love to partner with you on that journey, to dive deeper into this beautiful tool called the Enneagram, as well as provide you with additional resources to help you unlock your highest, most authentic self.

Connect with me here and let’s get started.

Have a wonderful week!

Love & Gratitude,

Katie